I don’t know what is the problem between me and NaNo, but I have felt the same thing going on in the last 2 years that I have done NaNoWriMo (2017 and 2018).
2016 was a totally new and different experience for me. I did almost no preparation before that November, I just started writing on the first day of that month, letting myself blow in the wind. Kinda. I mean, I had some notes and a (really, really, REALLY sheer) guide to follow through the month. But, in the end, I had my 50,000 words written down, I was doing my stuff and, even though I knew I had lots of work ahead, I was typing word after word and completing the challenge.
2017 was a completely different story, and 2018 is going on in a similar path.
Last year, life happened. I had a new, terrifying context to get used to and it was overwhelming for me. That situation led to me stopping posting on this blog, avoiding my social networks all at once and getting my creativity blocked for sure. I started NaNoWriMo 2017 full of energy and a real necessity to pour myself into the writing process of my second novel. But… as I said, life happened and I stopped everything around the middle of that month.
This year, although I have no terrible context to get used to (thank gods!), life is still happening in different ways that, all together, are making a huge struggle for me in order to keep writing and creating sh*t for my novel. I planned in October to use the first half of this current month to finish anything related to world, character and plot building, to sew all the loose strings together, and then start writing on the second half of this month, until reaching the 25,000-words mark.
And the first half of November/NaNoWriMo 2018 has already passed by and… I have done almost nothing that I had planned to.
Of course, I have done things, but they are so few and so tiny that I don’t even know if I can count them as “stuff done” or what. I mean, I did waaaaaay more on October, which was not supposed to be the “writing month” where I had to accomplish any challenge.
So, here I am, making my non-exist “progress report” for Week 2, after a failed Week 1 when I didn’t find a right time to create and to write. I hope Week 3 and Week 4 will get better, because this is totally frustrating.
Do you have any tips, suggestions or ideas to help me with this problem that I have? Should I force myself to write, no matter the situation? Should I force my “schedule” and make some room for my writing? Should I go with the flow and write only if possible? What do you think about all this?